Shawn was one of the best friend’s in television history.
this gif gives me life
Twelve days away from the 4th anniversary of my dad’s death and I’m no closer to knowing how to handle it than I was 4 years ago, sitting alone in my kitchen floor, wishing I could go instead.
Except now, I’m a workaholic and I have all these new dreams and goals for myself and a boy who would die for me and I’m so close to the brink of so many great things….but I still find myself wishing I could trade places with him and he could be here, hopefully better, and healthier, and happier. He was on the brink of things when he left, changing his life, becoming better, loving his kids more than he loved drugs. He deserved a chance to turn it all around, but he died anyway.
It’s also his 58th birthday, and my 11 month anniversary. I made turkey sandwiches and got offered 2 more jobs today. Things are good, and normal, but the void hasn’t left and I fear it never will.
I never gave him anything for his birthday because by the time I was old enough to buy gifts for people on my own, I had already made up my mind that he was undeserving.
He wasn’t. He deserved so much more. It took me a long time to realize that people are flawed and I’m not a fucking saint myself and I am just so mad that I thought I was so much better than him.
I’m sitting in a coffee shop writing all of this and crying alone because Tracy Chapman “Fast Car” just came on and I’ll just always be the sad little girl who wanted to love her daddy.
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